I don't know what's up with me lately, i've been feeling really detached with everything. Like i'm just a robot recording what i see and answering when i have too. It's really weird. I can go from laughing and joking like a little kid to this sad silence. Maybe i'm losing my sense of self worth or just my sense of self in general. Who knows. My last winter chorus concert is coming up. I have mixed feelings about it but i'm sure it will be passable. Without the seniors from last year chorus feels a little more like a chore instead of a fun time. I guess i just miss them.

So, i've realized something...life sorta sucks when you have the will to do something but not the means. It's actually kinda pathetic. They say you have to "see" yourself somewhere before you can get there.

You wanna know what i see?

I see Saint Barnabas Health Care center or something like that. But who knows.

i say that too much

Okies here's the news-
-I quit my job at Stop and Shop because it was causing too much stress on me.
-I got Torchwood Children of Earth boxset
-I want to go to the Chicago Stargate Con in Aug. Because David Hewlett is going to be there and if i don't meet him in chicago there is a HUGE chance i will probably NEVER meet him.
-i need money for that, i want to sell my poetry perhaps
-I found a PERFECT song for Eli and Chloe, any video takers??




That is all.

~Dani

What do you want to do next?

That seems like a good question. honestly-

-I want to quit my job because i don't understand any of it
-i want to just go back to living the way i want and not the way they want me too
-I want to worry about getting a job once highschool is over (too late)
-I want money without effort, i hate the stress i'm a basket case
-i feel like i see myself when i talk about my problems and i feel like i look so stupid
-and yes....it is my fault
-Ya know.....part of me actually doesn't want to live....

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I'm making a move to help myself. I talked to my case manager today about my problems. I'm going to see her tomorrow and we are going to discuss my options. So yay for that OH and this song just about ripped my heart out, for the love of torchwood this song is jacks burdens all rolled up into one.



Also random shout out to my sis from the web, Wheel of Fortune apparently is in boston this week lol ^_^

I wish i could just be an observer of life sometimes. Just like a camera and just watch people and observe how they act. I'm pretty much hired at this new job, my first job and naturally i am freaking out. That's too much stress.....i can't take it....i really can't. I just want help.

Gah! The warmth! It's gone lol! But it's all good i'm glad to be home. SGU and Sanctuary were amazing as usual. I'm excited for the new episodes. Um...i don't want to go back to school lol Ummmmmmmmmm other then that not much else to report LOL

Is Saturday! YAY! On friday i will be wearing my costume to school. I am going to be....
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IANTO JONES!

WOOHOO! I made the torchwood ID and everything ^_^ I even have something that looks remotely close to a stop watch lol. I is happeh!

Plus (spoiler warning....)

Fans, we should protests for Ashley Magnus. BRING BACK ASHLEY! There has GOT to be a way to save her. Like maybe ashley actually did make it out alive? Like maybe she did transport somewhere! She can't be gone! She just can't!

yes as you can see i am moving swimmingly into stage two of greif- Denial. ^__^

Hey all! I made some more icons, snurch if you like just give credit ^_^ Also the "William" and "Ashley (pink)" one are my first tries at getting artsy like lol personally i like the way William came out ^_^

OMG OMG OMG OMG! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! Read ahead at your own risk!

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HOW COULD THEY KILL ASHLEY?!?!??! WHY?!? That's not fair! *sobs*

Well my dad is home from the hospital, he's been home since yesterday and is doing good. Which is very good. And YAY friday SGU and Sanctuary day! A few days ago i started my journey into the world of Dr. Who, starting with series one (9th Doctor) to series four (tenth Doctor). So far i am almost done with the first series and i love it! It's FANTASTIC! ^____^ Um other then that i was absolutely DRAGGING it this week. This week was just a tired and lazy week for me but i plan to hopefully get a decent handful of sleep this weekend to recharge for next week and then after next week.....

FLORIDA! WOOHOO!

My best friend Meredith and her family are taking me to florida with them for a week! It's going to be wonderful, i need a vacation from life LOL.

Oh my good god why can't everyone just calm the fuck down?! I mean seriously! Everyone was running around before. My mom freaking out because she needs a ride to Jersey Shore because my dad got moved into a room instead of being in the ICU. She acts like he was on the brink of death when he is just fine! Seriously the man is alive!! SO CALM DOWN!

*Headdesk* GRRRRRRR!!!!!

It was amazing! It was the Big Apple Comic Con. Not AS big as the BIG COMIC CON but it was some what big. Despite the comics they had stargate stuff! GAH! and Dr. Who stuff!

Things i got-
-Stargate Atlantis Pegagus Patch
-Rodney Mckay Canada patch
-Torchwood Red letter patch
-Stargate SG-1 Shirt
-Dr. Who, tenth Doctor shirt
-Sweeney todd razor blade
-Rupert from survivor autograph

and i met....(And shook his hand AHHHH STARGATE YAY!)


Tony (Bra'tac)



Saul (Bregman (SG-1 "Heroes")


AND i nearly ran right into Adam West LOL I saw him like four times ^_^


All in all it was an AMAZING day!

Sanctuary was amazing last night! SGU was Great! LOL But Sanctuary....was just amazing. I feel SOOOOO bad for ashley and i know this is gonna sound a little messed up but i am actually happy Wills Girlfriend kicked the bucket lol. ASHLEY/WILL FOREVER!!! ^___^ There is hope lol

My day was EPIC! it was full of ups and downs lemme out line.

Ups- Apparently i did good on my chemistry test and apparently i'm doing good in chem.

Down- Nearly got hit in the head with a basket ball

Up- My Social Vibe Pink ball has come in and my bracelett!

MAJOR DOWN- My dad needs to get Triple Bypass on his heart....Open heart surgery.....fuck my life.

MAJOR UP- tomorrow is friday and that means SANCTUARY & SGU!

Up- Me loves Dr. Who

So yeah....today.....well...it was a bitch

I am seriously in love with this video-




Woo hoo i should be making more sanctuary icons soon so be on the look out ^_^

The only perk today is the fact that it's friday and Sanctuary and SGU are on tonight. And it's my sisters birthday.

On the bus today i had a huge fight with my girlfriend. She said some things i didn't want to hear and i flipped. Literally. I curled up, hyperventalating and freaked the fuck out. It's weird because there was only one other time it happened and it wasn't that bad.

I guess i'll just need to live with it.

Oh well.....